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General Earwa / Re: TSA related art and stuff. (VI)
« on: December 10, 2017, 12:33:31 am »
Oh, ok. :)

General Earwa / Re: TSA related art and stuff. (VI)
« on: December 10, 2017, 12:03:52 am »
Griffith not good enough for you? :p

General Earwa / Re: TSA related art and stuff. (VI)
« on: December 09, 2017, 04:24:50 pm »

General Misc. / Re: The Joe Rogan Experience
« on: December 09, 2017, 12:45:14 am »
Where, exactly, but that's a lot of podcast to go through. lolol

The Great Ordeal / My Tumblr Reactions to TGO
« on: December 08, 2017, 12:44:41 am »

1. Esmenet found Kelmomas early. YAY! She’ll learn the hard way that Mathinet was right. :(

2. KELLHUS! What are you doing to my baby!? Proyas…:( It’s true that Proyas is fierce and “full throttle” in everything he does. That hasn’t changed much over the years, but, what Kellhus is doing to him is the equivalent of molding a statue and then throwing it over a bridge. Is Proyas cutting himself? Or was he injured during a battle? Either way, Kellhus is breaking Darth Proyas and I know that it’s not just because he could. If “God” is in fact an “it”, then what would the No-God be? Are the other gods “its” too? I guess they could be if they are nothing more than concepts created by people.

Anyway, Kellhus is creating doubt for a reason, that’s for sure. I hope it isn’t because Kellhus is setting him (and the Great Ordeal) up for failure. Oh wait…#Teamconsult? Is Kellhus #Teamconsult? I talked about something like that in another post, but that was based on some ideal ending I had.

Damnit, I wish I could figure out why. I feel like a derpina. :( Poor Proyas…and I think it’ll only get worse.

3. Oh, Sorweel, Sorwa and Moehngus? Eh, so what? They’re consenting adults. As for Sorweel, I know he’s just pissy that he didn’t get to join in. lolol. But, I’m starting to just care less about them and more about the ORDEAL and, of course, Achamian and Mimara.

The Great Ordeal 19% Complete. This one is short as I want to get this out, but I will say more later.

I lost all respect for Theliopa for wanting a generally harmless girl DEAD. Even if Naree DID betray, it was out of desperation and not malice. She would NEVER be a threat. It’s NOT strength to kill a powerless, non threatening person. It’s COWARDICE. It’s not “ferocious”. It’s bullying a disadvantaged person and it’s nothing to be admired. Naree was ALREADY punished and she was already punishing herself. It’s not like she took pleasure at what happened.

Esmenet even admitted that she would have done the same thing. While I can never fully hate Esmenet, I lost all respect for her too. Unless, she told her to leave and it make it look like she killed her. She’s smart enough to pull that off.

I don’t believe Kellhus would have even thought of someone like Naree, much less kill her.

It would have been strength to stand up to Thelli and REFUSE while finding better alternatives. But, Esmenet is easily manipulated by people like Thelli. Shame. Doesn’t help that I think she has deep insecurities that can be played on.

I just think that people like Naree are not even worth killing. It’s not like she’s going to do anything like that again. Naree should have just fled, I guess. She had the money. LOL.

The only way I would change my mind is if you can prove to me that malice and forethought was involved. If Naree even WAS a threat in any way.  Otherwise, KILLING Naree showed weakness. Showed that Esmenet was easily manipulated into doing anything her children wanted her to do. It shows cowardice because it makes someone like Naree out to be a greater threat than they are. I’m just not impressed with killing a desperate, POWERLESS(can’t stress this enough) person who can’t fight back or have anyone to do it for her.

Achamian would be horrified. So would Proyas and he DEFINES ferocious. Pretty sure both of them would had told Theliopa to get bent.

Exiling Naree or at worst, imprisoning her would have been more appropriate, but there’s no Tyrion Lannister there to say so. :(

1. I am STILL pissed about a VERY minor character like Naree. I guess it’s because she isn’t just a faceless “red shirt” type like in the First Holy War. Don’t get me wrong, I was pissed about that too, but I was even angrier about the death of one girl. Oh! The Humanity! The thing is, HALF THE CITY betrayed Esmenet for a variety of reasons and it looks like many of them either already have been forgiven or will be.

How to get away with betrayal: Be important. Don’t be someone like Naree. Then, you will skate.

I know I’m being odd about this, but I tend to look at it in a “it depends” sort of mode. Eliminating poverty, even if it means giving money to a “irresponsible freeloader”, would eliminate a lot of betrayals for gold though.

Now on to other things.

2. Saubon can go screw. He can also go to hell. Do not pass go. Do not collect 200 dollars. Yet another person who has “something to prove.” Did you seriously consider Proyas a coward and weak? REALLY!?!? REALLY!?!? Why? Because Proyas isn’t interested in killing people WHO HAVE ALREADY SURRENDERED! And Kellhus was on board with that? Oh FUCK THAT. Yet another reason why Fanayal is the least of the Empire’s worries. Why should anyone negotiate or surrender if they’re going to get sacked anyway? Where is Conphas when you need him? I WISH he was still around to work with Fanayal. THAT would have made things so much better and interesting. But, NOOO, he just HAD to be killed off. BAH. And the condescending attitude towards Proyas! BLEAGH.

3. Serwa cannot see Sorweel. Oh dear. And it looks like the Emwama=hobbits/halflings. If that’s the case, then that’s an interesting deconstruction since halflings usually are NOT victimized in that way. Not from what I’ve seen. I mean, sure, some get into trouble, but I’ve never seen large groups of them end up enslaved. I’m not really disgusted. I just feel sorry for them. Looks like Moenghus is in the same situation as Cnaiur once was. Oh dear.

4. Looks like Theliopa is suspecting Kelmomas. Uh oh. I still love her clothes. I always want to see what she’s wearing next.

5. Give Esmenet credit where it is due. She did everything she could to help when things went South. In this case, she is doing the right thing, including wanting Fanayal dead because fuck him. No one cares. See, “it depends”. This is a much different situation and Fanayal has been a problem person for YEARS. TBH, I’m pretty sure that Momemn will win this one, but it will be at a heavy cost. Sort of a Pyrrhic victory. In the aftermath, I doubt Esmenet will be able to go after domestic problem people, much less the Fanim. ESPECIALLY is Scranc, the Consult and the No God (and the Skylvendi who worship him) manage to get down there.

And now, some trance:

The Great Ordeal 28% complete.

1. So…Kellhus/Proyas…OTP? Dear god…he went there. Holy shit…he went there. I, er, didn’t see that coming. I thought it was a goof. And Kellhus admitting that he’s tearing down Proyas in order to build him into what exactly? Someone who is going crazy? Or, someone who is no longer so damned zealous? Someone like Achamian? Proyas was drugged(with Chanv, which is cool, but it was done without consent and that shit is said to be a bit addictive), ate Scranc meat(which is obviously making people crazy), and then fucked in the ass. I don’t think he even got lubed, let alone get a reach around.

It would certainly explain his behavior afterward. I honestly found the scene with the rude Sauboun knights infuriating on every level. I know it’s because of my own modern sensibilities and my VERY socialist leanings, but it all seemed OFF to me. I was thinking “wow, Proyas is going a bit nuts.” I know those guys were doing things they weren’t supposed to be doing and yes, they WERE assholes, but that was SAUBON’S ISSUE. HIS problem. You’re there to see Saubon, not demand that some assholes not even in your direct command kneel and then REMAIN outraged when they finally do as Saubon says. Then again, he might be outraged because he knows it’s fake and only done to appease Saubon and not out of any respect for him, the Law, or Kellhus. You know Saubon fostered that attitude toward Proyas. Well, I think you know. :p

I know that Proyas is a real stickler about the Law and isn’t afraid of enforcing it, but I honestly think his behavior at that point obvious isn’t like him. Don’t get me wrong, he has NEVER tolerated horseshit from very many people(hell, I remember what he was like with KELLHUS in the Warrior Prophet), but this is different. Gee, I wonder why.

2. For all his faults, Saubon has it right by choosing knights for MERIT rather than bloodline. Honestly, I don’t think he will do shit to those guys. I don’t think he cares enough to bother. He’s just telling Proyas what he wants to hear. Otherwise, he would have done something AGES ago as such insolence to another EXALT-GENERAL didn’t happen overnight. Unless…scranc meat. Something I just realized: Saubon is INSOLENT in his own right(Proyas is very aware of this), so of course, he’s going pick similar people around him. It’s one of the reasons why he doesn’t get along with people outside of his own group.

Anyway, he figured out the Sranc meat. Saubon isn’t stupid and he proved that. As for the anti-gay stuff…well, a lot of that in such worlds/times is based on ignorance. It simply never occured to those people that someone like say, Cnaiur, could take dicks up his ass, ears, nose, mouth and dickhole and STILL be the “Most violent of men.” Beyond that, I don’t blame Saubon for being SHOCKED and appalled at what happened. I certainly was. Saubon is actually showing some of his old humanity here, and that’s a good thing.

However, I can’t see them getting closer together the way Proyas wants/hopes. They’re just too different.

3. Interesting and also a bit sad that Proyas still thinks of Achamian, but I don’t think Achamian has ever thought of him since the Thousand Fold Thought. Something tells me that Kellhus is setting up Proyas to meet Achamian again. Prophet, my ass, Kellhus WANTS Achamian to KNEEL because he is one of the few people Kellhus has little power over.

I can’t think of anything else right now. Honestly, only three people matter to me now: Proyas, Achamian and Mimara. Every one else can just vaporize.

Ah…now we are on to the best two characters ever with Proyas trailing behind (for now). Mimara and Achamian at Ishual. I have two words: JESUS CHRIST. Dunyain evil? In other news, water is wet and there is a hurricane heading to Tampa and probably heading to the Panhandle because that’s all I need.

Ehem…anyway, the shit about women are “lesser souls” and other such bullshit turned my eyes into slot machines. Let’s be real, how many women actually DO those things? I’d say…about 10% do all those things and are sincere. Even in the most patriarchal societies, I will guarantee you that some women did NONE of those things, provided NONE of those things, and only gave when they had something to gain/something in return (true altruism is VERY rare). AND THEY GOT AWAY WITH IT. I doubt it’s much different in Earwa. “Righteous demands”. Please. Cnaiur’s idea of “righteous” is MUCH different from say, Proyas’s. Lower their gaze? Are men gorillas? Yeesh.

Then again, judgement is based on what you know and what you can guess with the information you have. Sometimes, judgement can be very biased. So, even the Judging Eye might not be all that accurate.

However, I believe Mimara when she says that the Dunyain are EVIL in general. Those poor “Whale Mothers”. Obviously, they were women being kidnapped, mutilated, and then distorted into well…very big women. I guess they’re similar to Axlotol tanks of the Tleilax only the tanks were vegetative. Not here. These women were conscious and aware. WOW. Fate worse than death and body horror. To be evil though, you need ill will. I’m guessing most of the Dunyain do have that, but it’s very well controlled.

BOY is creepy. Survivor(Koheinghus, son of Kellhus) is well…OH MY GOD. WHAATT!!? And then it’s back to Momemn, a place I no longer give much of a shit about whoopie. Boy is probably Ko’s son. Awww…so Kellhus has a grandson. Like he gives a shit.

If it’s true that Kellhus is also evil, then…poor Proyas. He is so FUCKED. Kellhus dick would be the least of his worries. Might be why Kellhus is unraveling Proyas’s faith and he didn’t give him a reacharound. :(

The Great Ordeal. 47% Complete. Honestly, it feels like I’m flying through this one. Dayum.

1. Nonmen steal the show again and the Lastborn seems particularly interesting. Looks like the King is crazy. I’d say about half of them are completely gone. “Intact?” Whoa…Nonmen who are SANE? Oh, man. It sounds like a Catch-22 situation. I guess the King wants to stay moisturized considering how much oil he’s pouring on himself. Can you imagine these nutters being allies to the Great Ordeal? AHAHHAHHA! Disaster in the making.

2. So, the Dunyain were DONE in(get it? get it? lololol) by Nonmen Consult mages. Yea, I’m totally crying here. The feels. NOT. Still, the Survivor’s perspective is quite interesting and the situation with the Whale Mothers is clarified. The Dunyain women actually are DEAD (similar to Axlotol tanks). BUT, there’s no changing the fact that the Dunyain have been preparing to, well, “possess” the world for quite sometime. Like much of Earwa isn’t already enslaved. Still, I can’t help but think that the Dunyain in general would be much worse.

3. OH GREAT! Achamian is talking about “intercepting the Great Ordeal.” Oh! THAT’S going to be fun! I really don’t blame Mimara for wanting those guys dead. However, I do wonder how accurate the Judging Eye is though. Like I’ve said before, it could be based on biases or the fact that the person holding the Eye could be fooled somehow. If it’s like the Dragon Tear of BOF2, then, HELL! SHE’S RIGHT! If not, then that would complicate matters.

4. Achamian now sounds like the dancer in “Staying Alive.” “Every one uses everyone, don’t they?” Sorry, Akka. I’m on Mimara’s side here. As for using the Eye on Kellhus…well, you forget, Kellhus can manipulate pretty much anyone. It’s possible that the Judging Eye might not be the exception. Still, I want Akka to see Proyas again. I want some more fireworks.

5. Serwa? Meh. Real? Whatever. Anyway, Sorweel is getting interesting though. Looks like he’s the “White Luck Warrior” who is anointed.

The Great Ordeal 57% complete.

1. Lastborn is becoming among my favorites. And WOW! His backstory is sad, SAD, SAD. He was more than just a “Siqu” for Nil'Giccas, but a lover, it seems. Oh man. :( He claims that Kellhus is a savior, but of what, exactly? I wonder if a lot of people even WANT to be saved considering the kind of lives they must have on this Crapsack world. Course, if Earwa is anything like Earth, then maybe things will get better. Eventually…

I honestly don’t know what to think at this point. I’m really not #teamconsult though unless I’m in a foul mood. I know that their evil is beyond even Kellhus and the Dunyain, but lesser evil is still evil.

2. Saubon! Why do you have to be so Goddamned nasty!? Maybe that’s why Kellhus sent you to Dagliash! It’s because YOU’RE AN ASSHOLE! I swear, that song “I’m an asshole” has Saubon written all over it. He SPAT at PROYAS! AT PROYAS! Even Cnaiur wouldn’t have done that. But, poor Proyas lost all will to fight. :( But, what chance would he have? Kellhus does not want him at that fortress. There is a reason for this. There is a reason why he wants Saubon there.

3. Proyas! No weepers in the SLOG! Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think crying is a weakness, but to do it in public is generally not a good idea unless you’re from a society/situation where it’s acceptable. This applies to ALL stations, not just Royalty. In a situation like that, you never EVER let Saubon see you even SWEAT, much less cry.

Proyas has very irritating faults. I admit that there have been times that I would have LOVED to boil him in oil, but what makes him so endearing is the fact that despite the zealotry, he really IS a good, humane person. He WANTS to be a a good person. That is totally true and it’s written out in the flying raft. He wanted to be righteous(an irritating word). It’s just that, imo, you can’t really be righteous by being a fanatic. But, that’s the thing about Proyas. HE IS INTENSE. That, to me, is painfully obvious. It’s why his desire to find the right path for him ended up being MY WAY OR NO WAY and found someone(Kellhus) to enforce that.

He FINALLY admits that. After Kellhus basically shattered him. The good things that come out of this though is that Proyas is no longer so zealous and that maybe he can FINALLY learn that people like Achamian CAN be good people. That it’s possible to be strong without using religion as a crutch. Proyas IS strong. He, and a lot of people, can do just fine without organized religion. Saubon can just kiss my ass with his “weak” shit. So can Kellhus at this point. He did NOT have to RAPE Proyas for ANY REASON. Maybe the “head on the pole behind him” is his sanity.

Let’s not forget the MEAT though. Yea, it’s making people a bit nutters. I’m not sure if it affected Kellhus in the same way, but even if it has, unraveling Proyas was being done long before THE MEAT. And really, what were they supposed to do? Eat each other?

I really fear for Proyas. Honestly, I envision him going out like Slave Knight Gael in Dark Souls III(awesome fight though). If he dies, then only Achamian and Mimara will keep me “in”, so to speak. Lastborn too if he lasts long enough.

Beyond that, don’t be damned, Proyas please. Please be among the “saved”, like Mimara. Unless, of course, you’re taking over Hell just to lord it over Saubon and Conphas.

Oh yea, that’s a hell for Saubon. Trap him in a room with CONPHAS. Hell is, according to existentialist philosophy, other people.

I just have so much to say about Proyas, but I feel like I’ll just be redundant. PROYAS MUST NOT COME TO HARM! So says Cnaiur and so do I!

The Great Ordeal 68% Complete.

1. Sorry, but I’m a bit over Esmenet. Yes, we GET IT. She keeps thinking and saying the same things over and over again. Yes, the writing is beautiful, but COME ON. There is a siege going on and THIS IS IT? I can’t believe I’m saying this, but it’s BORING. If only it was Fanayal AND Conphas. That would have made things more interesting, but NOOOOO. It’s snoozefest over there.

2. Over Kelmomas too. Watching a guy shit. Eat apples. Becoming a pawn of Ajokli. ZZZZZZZZ. BOOO! BOOO! Be more funny!

3. NOOO! Lastborn! NOOO! Damnit! I had hoped that he didn’t actually die, but this death was made pretty clear! Fuck! He was such a compelling character too! BOOOO!! Sorweel looks down for the count too. When the father was described as “TALL”, they weren’t lying. Dayum. And he sets the world on FIRE! HE IS PISSED! He is going to kill EVERY ONE! Yea, he wasn’t happy when he found out that the king sold out to the Consult. Oh dear oh dear…

4. That whole mountain is like an insane Asylum gone amok. Hell, ALL of the mountains are. Jesus…Still, the whole thing was fascinating as fuck. That boat should be an amusement park ride. ;) What a read…and honestly, that Holy area reminded me of the Dark Brotherhood in Elder Scrolls. They like silence very much. Sounds like a peaceful area though. Poor Sorweel…living the experience of another Nonman, one who had a male lover too and then seeing that male lover as nothing but a wreck. So sad…and that lover would have killed him because that’s what insane Nonmen do. Yea, karma took a HUGE shit on the Nonmen.

5. Eariler on, Kellhus admits that Proyas always had most of his attention. Not even Esmenet had that honor. Would certainly explain a lot. Seems like quite a few people have wanted/want Proyas. I can understand why. Still, what happened to him is unfortunate. :(

6. I found out that a redditor had this theory that the “Head on the pole behind him” is actually Kellhus’s emotions. Seems that the Gods NOM on the souls of the emotional. Since Kellhus is Dunyain, he is “half-dead” and so cannot be nommed. If the Gods of Earwa are anything like the God Hand of Berserk, then this means that their power stems from emotions (well, certain emotions), so by eliminating emotion in general, the Gods basically starve. Faith is a food of the gods too, of course, but that’s nothing new. Then again, Gods nomming on anything is hardly new.

Just a theory though. Looks like I’m not the only one with the Shijima theory as a Dunyain/Kellhus goal. Honestly, it SOUNDS great, but there would be no room for the passionate in such a world. Meh…still too many unknowns or something I’m missing.

The Great Ordeal 76% Complete. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD….

1. Welp. Told ya, Saubon. Go to hell. Do not pass go. Do not collect 200$ And above all, DON’T TRUST KELLHUS. Hey, you said it yourself about your “Might makes Right” attitude and how it’s “built on lies”. Honestly, he has more in common with Conphas than he will ever care to admit. The difference is that Saubon appreciates those mightier than himself(even if he wants to ‘conquer greatness’), but Conphas never did. It’s why Saubon can get away with being a “non believer” and Conphas was thrown out. I guess there’s also the fact that Saubon was good at going through the motions and killing lots of people without thinking he’s an actual God. I will always have some kind of respect for him. Need someone to kill 'em all and salt the Earth? He is THE ONE. That, and that fact that he goes by merit rather than bloodline. I will always like that.

For Saubon fans, if there’s any consolation, he won’t be lonely. He’ll FINALLY belong(something I think he ALWAYS wanted, only he just HAD to be the most important) and he’ll see that witch he liked so much. LOL. WHEW.

That whole sequence was a bit hard to follow, but WOW. What a payoff. What I don’t understand is why Saubon and his knights were up that tower when Kellhus TOLD them to RUN. Am I missing something? Maybe he COULDN’T get out? Trapped? All I know that they were fighting that tower while witches were falling and then FWOOOOOSH–NUKE in a “coffer”. DAYUM.

I love how the sranc and the humans hesitated. Would have been hilarious if they ALL ran. LOLOL! NUKE–the great unifier.

Couldn’t actually take the fort? Just nuke it! The Kellhus way! The “Shortest Path” indeed. Man, Saubon was SO set up. At least that’s how I see it. :/

2. Oh Proyas. His “full throttle” quality will never change. I actually had dreams of him driving a truck and gunning it every chance he got. Kayutas is next to him, actually impressed. Instead, he is driving a PONY(poor Pony). Kayutas is next to him, suddenly finding him interesting. Proyas has always been interesting, but I do agree that he has become even more interesting now that he is disillusioned and traumatized by being assraped.

So, Proyas’s love for Kayutas mirrors Achamian’s love for him. Awww…only difference is that Kayutas is one who likely does not hate at all. Kellhus, jr.

I’m sure Proyas’s wife and kids are happy that he ended up spending more time with Kayutas than with them. Sure, they’d be equally happy to find that Kayutas saved his bacon. Proyas, it’s okay to ease off the gas pedal every once in awhile. Even as you’re high on “MEAT CRACK.”

3. Yea, not every one can be saved. That’s reality. Some people don’t want to be saved. That’s reality too. A good thing? Suuuure, if you’re among the “saved.”

The Great Ordeal 83% Complete.


“Welcome to Dagliash, the worst place in the world.” Christ…

TBH, I was starting to get a little annoyed with weepy Proyas, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I really don’t blame him. NO ONE has seen anything like this. EVER. And it’s not like the modern era of planet Earth where radiation sickness can actually be treated(well, as long as it’s not in the “end of life stage”). They knew nothing of this:

All Kellhus knew was that they were “polluted”(yea, that’s putting it mildly) and they had to be kept away from those who were contaminated as radiation can spread. He also knew that the people who weren’t contaminated needed to GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE. Well, no shit.

Honestly, the whole thing bothered me more than it should. I KNEW that “culling” had to be done as many of them were dying anyway or will within a couple of weeks. I think the problem was that NO ONE had the power to do anything but keep some semblance of order, clean up the area as best they can, and try to do something for the dying while the main Host leaves. You KNOW this tore Proyas up. He can’t even offer comfort, something he did while his soldiers suffered in the Carathay desert, much less do anything else, except take what is left of the Host and head for a place even worse: GOLGOTTERATH.

It’s just the fact that these “Scalded” in the “Slough” are dying terrible deaths and they KNOW it. This stuck with me ALL DAMNED DAY. Even brain bleach(Opie and Anthony, Terraria, some “cloud psychic” nut) only did so much. I even felt a bit weepy myself after awhile. We will never see “The Scalded” again. Not alive. Not even Hoga Horim or whatever his name is. He took charge, which is fine. Most people were fine with him and their fates, even better. “It was simply the way.” Yup. Makes sense. These people knew that they wouldn’t even be able to help themselves, much less anyone else. It’s just sad.

Talk about doing whatever it takes, Consult.

And now we have the Walking Dead following the main host. Damn…that guy’s not giving up. Proyas will soon be facing a Zombie Apocalypse. I’m sure that’ll end well. Riiiight.

So, it all falls to Proyas now. This’ll be the first time since before Kellhus’ Circumfixtion that’s he been the main leader. I think he’ll do just fine as he has no problem with sticking his foot up the asses of shitheads if he has to, but unlike Saubon, it’s tempered with compassion. Or about as much compassion as a broken, ruined, Scranc eating crazy person can have. You think Saubon would shed a single tear for what happened? I doubt it. He wouldn’t be happy, but he sure as hell wouldn’t be weeping.

As for the Desert Lions, I think it’s safe to say that they died with Saubon. I think that’s for the best as they clearly preferred him over Proyas. Would have been interesting for at least one of them to adjust to a different kind of leader, but from what I’ve read, they were nasty to every one EXCEPT for Saubon.

2. So, Survivor does not survive. He kills himself because he realizes that he is broken and that the Logos is bullshit. Hey, anything taken to extremes is generally pretty bad. Sometimes, it’s okay to take the “scenic route”. Still, he is forgiven, whatever that means. He had an interesting perspective, had the right idea about the crackie, and it ended too soon. But, now, Achamian, Mimara and the boy can see Dalgiash. OHHH! Don’t go there! That place is bad news!!

Hopefully, Achamian will see Proyas again. That’s going to be fun, I’m sure.

The Great Ordeal: Complete. Now on to the Unholy Consult(I am dreading this…)

1. CNAIUR! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! He wasn’t actually dead! YES YES YES! He’s as crazy as ever! And poor Mimara NAILED him! I don’t know about being heroic without Moenghus, but I know that he wouldn’t have been so damned that he might as well use Guts’ Berserker Armor at all times.

Yea, Cnaiur, sometimes I agree with you: LET EVERYTHING BURN. I WISH the Consult actually did his bidding instead of trying to pull wool over his eyes. That would have been so fitting seeing as the Scalvendi worship the No God.

If I read it right, looks like Cnaiur wanted to be present to watch Ishual burn. He wanted the Dunyain boy DEAD. He STILL wants Kellhus dead and he is going after Achamian and Mimara to make sure that happens. “Let them go…” Yea, sure he did. I love how Mimara was able to stand up to Cnaiur as best she could. Honestly, I think she saved Akka’s bacon. Then again, I think Cnauir knows that it’s in his interest to keep both of them alive, especially with the “Eye” that he would love to pluck out, I’m sure.

Scylvendi shadowing the Ordeal? Did I read that right? Gee, I wonder why… I’m sure they’ll “help”. Suuure.

2. I know what Achamian is up to. He knows that there are exceptions to EVERYTHING and he’s accepting the possibility that Kellhus might BE the exception. He just wants to be certain. But, even if Kellhus WAS the exception, I wish he would keep in mind what KIND of world is being saved. What would happen AFTER? Surely, he has to think of this. But, I don’t blame Mimara for being a bit irritated.

3. OH! Momenm not boring this time around! HOORAY! Three people killed by Kellhus in one fell swoop. Meppa is not dead though. There’s obviously a reason why he’s kept around. Honestly, it all feels kind of cheap though. I was quite interested in the Zeum sorcery. Didn’t get to see much of that at all. For shame. Poor Sorcerer too because he’s know stuck in that demon head, if I read that right. Poor Zsoronga, but I think that chorae Sorweel gave him will help. I haven’t forgotten that. It looks like the actual king will be the first target though. Will have to see.

4. Nanaferri, I hardly knew you or really cared at this point. Full blown wackaloon and yes, I’m pretty sure Yatwer foresaw it just like it’s obvious that SHE caused those quakes. Nanaferri knew that they were all going to die, but not how. As for the White Luck Warrior, well, that was unfortunate. Esmenet is now a complete mess now that Thelli is dead and she FINALLY realized the truth about Kelmomas. Kellhus isn’t pleased with her either. I actually got very nervous when she went into the audience hall because I thought she would be killed there. Didn’t happen, but I have a feeling that Esmenet will not end well. Who am I kidding? NO ONE will end well. :(

5. Now for the Unholy Consult and I am dreading it. But, this is a series that I would like to finish even though I know that it will no doubt be heartbreaking. The Death Gate Cycle was the last “epic” series I finished and that was MANY years ago. I guess things really do happen for a reason. I started this when my hard drive failed and didn’t have a desktop for close to two weeks.

The Unholy Consult / Re: Who actually liked TUC?
« on: December 06, 2017, 03:49:34 pm »
One of the most different and amazing things I have ever read.  It didn't go the way I wanted the story to go, but I thought it was perfect.  I did not let that color my feelings on the book.  I am Team Kellhus all the way and I wanted a win for him; obviously not what happened.  Bakker books read like scripture and tell me more about me as a person than any other thing I have read. I can't wait for more.  It transcends reading because of how he writes; how can you not want more of this?  ASOIAF, Kingkiller Chronicles, Dresden, The Iron Druid, and even Dragonlance and that old stuff doesn't come close to what Bakker has done with his books and world.  Time spent rereading, lurking on here and researching related topics to *know*.  That is amazing.  The only thing that comes close is Richard Kadrey or Wily Vlautin; check them out- good thinking man writing.

Actually, Malazan comes pretty close too.

The White-Luck Warrior / My Tumblr Reactions to White Luck Warrior
« on: December 01, 2017, 01:14:54 am »

White Luck Warrior. 9% Complete.

1. I always love Proyas’s POV chapters. He’s always been a captivating character for me even when he’s at his worst. I swear, he has the strongest conscience in the world. He’s been in combat for how long now? You’d think he’d be used to sacking cities, but he’s vomiting and crying after presiding over the sacking of an Aioni city like he’s done it for the first time. It might be because he became a father/husband/king after the Holy War, but I just think it’s because he’s no Scalvendi or Conphas. Can you imagine what Cnaiur would think? *Spits*.

I wasn’t too surprised that he became a husband and a father. It’s pretty much expected of those in his position. However, there have been monarchs who DID NOT marry for whatever reason and he should have been one of them given what he’s been doing for the past twenty years, especially when the KIDS need to be reminded that he is their father. Yikes. One of them was named Xinemus though. :D

I still felt a bit “awww…eh…meh” about it because I felt like it was unnecessary to include it. Even in Proyas’s case, they’re just abstractions. He admits that himself. So for him, sacrificing them for “the big picture” would not be that difficult to do since there isn’t a strong bond with them. HOWEVER, even if he DID have a solid bond with his family, he STILL thinks like a world leader. Not just a King of Conriya, or a father, husband, lover or friend. He knows that if the Consult is allowed to run amok, then EVERY ONE would die. Not just enemies, people you don’t care about, or the assholes, but the people you do love. IOW, it won’t matter who’s skeleton is your wife, friend, loved one.

Of course, that’s all thanks to Kellhus. There is a REASON why he keeps Proyas so close and it isn’t just because Proyas thinks in the big picture. I think it’s also because Proyas is aware that Kellhus sees the world as a “benjuku plate” and that won’t change even if Golgotterath is utterly annihilated.

One thing though, Proyas is wrong about dismissing man as “weak” just because they value those closest to them more than anything else. Man, in general, is short-sighted and small-minded, but not necessarily weak. Powerless, sure, as many people are like that, but weak? Not really. It’s easy to make that accusation though. “Weak” is one of those words that is thrown around to the point of meaninglessness.

Than again, Proyas is very hard on himself and so tends to be hard on others too. It’s totally true that he is a “rare, and ardent soul”. IMO, great leaders are pretty damned rare, but that could be my cynicism talking.

I just adore Proyas; faults, volcano tempers, and all.

2. Poor Sloggies. If it’s not one thing, it’s another. The NO SOBBING rule is clearly in effect. Sobbers DIE! LOLOL! Than again, the “sobber” in question was likely dying anyway. Captain doesn’t screw around, like always, but he’s starting to look and act like a hot mess.

Maybe he’s going a bit nuts too? As for “Soot”, what happened to him was unfortunate, but he was like just there…maybe that was the whole point. Don’t know what you have ‘till it’s gone. And it figures that he would “damned”.
:(  It’s one thing for someone like him to be “damned”, but for people who were born of the FEW to be damned is BULLSHIT. Hell, being damned for eternity is BULLSHIT. Maybe it is. I don’t think anyone has come back from the “Outside” to say anything about it.

Maybe the Consult is trying to “save themselves from damnation” for nothing. Maybe they should…well…I dunno, not rape and kill a bunch of people? Just an idea. At least with magic users, they’re not really to blame for what they have.

3. Oh back to Proyas. I have a confession to make. I knew that Mimara was still alive even before the Aspect Emperor and knew that she was an adult. I actually “ship” Proyas and Mimara. My ideal ending was to have Proyas, Mimara and some others take on mean old Kellhus and defeat him and the Consult. Then he would marry Mimara and they would simply rebuild what is left of the world. And then a rainbow, gold bunny with ruby eyes flew out of my ass.

4. Cleric is being awesome, as usual. I love his sermons. I love it every time he does anything. He could be taking a dump, and I would love it.

White Luck Warrior 25% Complete.

1. “I shit when I shit!” Damned right you do, Inrilatas! Move over, Kelmomas, there’s a new Crazy Diamond in town and he is AWESOME! YES! Set him free, so that he might wreak havoc and KILL! Watch the Empire Burn! And the world. And kill Mathinet. Don’t die though. Not yet. This guy is too awesome to kill off. I love insanity in fiction. Joker, for example, is my favorite Batman villain. However, villains like Harvey Two-Face tend to be more unnerving. Anyway, can’t wait to see what he does once he escapes. Thanks for that, Kelmomas.

2. Yea, it’s pretty obvious that Kelmomas’s love for his mother is the same love one has for say, a toy. As for people being viewed as animals and/or children, I tend to roll my eyes. Animals don’t get treated as badly as the humans on this world or any world really. Also, animals don’t have ego/superego, so they’re not as affected by being looked down on.

3. I think Esmenet does despise those who kneel all too quickly and I don’t blame her for that. Bootlicks suck. I think she HATES the system and how things are and I think a lot of her decisions are based on the “letter of the law” and not something she personally agrees with. What can she do though?
She’s not Daenerys; she doesn’t have three dragons and even Dany’s well intentioned acts led to a lot of problems. I tend to smile at peasant/slave revolts because they’re usually well-intentioned or based on something like “WE"RE STARVING”. Not to say that Upper Class/Noble revolts don’t have that, but it’s not the same thing. Counter-Revolt, and Reactionary Rebellions don’t count. I also don’t generally count overthrows of Monarchs either, unless there’s a permanent system change. Anyway, with popular rebellions, even if they tend to fail due to playing against a VERY stacked deck, they tend to have lasting effects, some of which are permanent.

And that’s just it with the Kellian Empire. The measures they’re taking to quell the rebellions/riots are only prolonging the inevitable: Apocalypse.

As for why Esmenet hates using people, it’s most likely because she likes doing things herself and she knows how to feels to be “used”. Hell, she still is being used. :/  And yes, she is very much aware that she only has the authority she has because of Kellhus. She hates that too, no doubt.

4. So Soma was a skin-spy. Was a bit of a shock, but then I thought of how he was throughout the story and realized that it was all there. I suspect that he was a skin-spy long before he was involved in “The Slog”. Even Cleric didn’t see that or maybe he just didn’t care. He is upset now that he has been caught.

5. Sorweel is doing good! Hooray!

6. No way Mathinet is behind these riots. Certain people *cough Kel* just want him out of the way because Esement likes him and is also seen as a threat. TBH, I don’t care about Mathinet either way. He’s not cool enough.

1. I can certainly understand why Mimara is so angry at her mother. Sold into slavery? Check. Many innocent people dying because of what happened? Check. Mimara is right to be a bit miffed. Because honestly? The people who paid the price probably didn’t even KNOW Mimara, much less have anything to do with her in the brothel. Or, they didn’t actually DO anything to her. The guilty parties? I guarantee that they all got away. Which means that a lot of people died for nothing. No wonder the Empire is a such a mess. A lot of their policies are actually self-defeating.

Achamian NAILED pretty much everything in his responses/saying. The only exception would be about love/hate. It’s possible to hate someone without ever having loved them. But, Achamian is usually right and a few disagreements don’t change that. He’s still the tits.

2. Mimara is pregnant. It’s obviously Achamian’s, but if what he says is true, then it will problably be a still birth. :(

3. Awww…Cleric likes Mimara. Isn’t that precious? Cleric/Mimara, FTW! NOT. Much as I adore Cleric, he is insane and even if he wasn’t, he is Immortal, so he’d end up with the same issues as Vampires and many other immortals: GRIEF due to constant loss. It’s why many vampires end up solitary or with other Vampires. Well, such things are CURSES for a reason.

4. Here we go again with supplies running out. I guess Bakker follows Murphy’s Law: Anything that can go wrong, WILL go wrong. Poor Slaves. :( But, it’s not just them. MANY people, including Princes, were left behind to go home or die. Probably the latter. FIGURES.

 My sympathy is with those who were FORCED to be there. The rest? TUFF. Kayutas does have a point though. He’s not doing what he’s doing out of malice, but out of practicality. I also don’t think he’s a Conphas. Not really. He’s not as fun.

5. The witches are just awesome! I bet people are sorry for their dumb prejudices now! Proof that people were WRONG, WRONG, WRONG about female magic users. As for Serwa, well, there’s no questioning her ability, but are we supposed to give much of a shit about her? Right now, I don’t, but it looks like Sorweel is stuck with her.

6. Proyas…here, have one of these:

There is a reason why Kellhus is asking you those questions. Oh, and it’s true that Achamian is not gentle, but to say that he is unwise is not a good plan. Unless, Proyas is just telling Kellhus what he wants to hear. I do, however, think it’s ridiculous to look down on a man who has been cheated on. What is a woman called when she is cheated on? Women in that situation are generally NOT viewed in the same manner. Oh, and Achamian was guilty of cheating too. Was he a cuckold then? Was Esmenet? Is a woman EVER a cuckold? Would Esmenet have been considered one if SHE chose to renounce Kellhus?

7. I really can’t stress this enough: Kellhus does not see people as children, they’re seen as chattel to be used and thrown away. He wants EVERY ONE who isn’t Dunyain to be in THAT position. This is has nothing to do with left-wing, right-wing, hot-wing ideology either. I’ve always believed (and still do) that the Dunyain in general want a world of nothing but LOGOS.

Basically, this: Shijima( The reason which Hikawa created. Shijima is all about having a world of silence. Where people all are gods, but serve very specific roles. Emotions and human feelings are gone in order to maintain complete tranquility. Everyone performs their function accordingly in the world of Shijima and works together to keep the world going smoothly. So overall, the world is guaranteed to be safe in this reason, but the power of emotions is gone. A driving force for people to live ceases to exist. Overall, that”s what’s in store for you if you select Shijima as your reason.

You like? Then, I guess you can route for Kellhus/Dunyain. If I am wrong, then I think that Kellhus has no intention of saving very many people at all. NO ONE, except Cnaiur(dead for realz, I guess…what a waste) and Achamian realize this, but the latter is mincing his words.

8. LOL! The Captain does not fuck around. Not even for a moment. Such dedication to THE SLOG. Such devotion to Kellhus. A true believer. Too bad he will probably be killed. Would be a shame as he commands respect. I still have little sympathy for the Stone Hags.

White Luck Warrior 50% Done!

1. NO! Inrilatas! My favorite crazy diamond! NOOO! I will miss you, crazy awesome! God damn, he was sooo good at fucking with EVERY ONE. I loved that and now he is gone. I am very disappointed. I could care less about Mathinet. His head could explode right in front of me and I wouldn’t care. I don’t think Kelmomas intended for Inrilatas to die at that moment though(later though, for obvious reasons). He simply didn’t understand what Inril was trying to do. Who can? Inrilatas is a nutter. Would have loved it if Proyas confronted Inrilatas. I’d have popcorn.

2. I think one problem with Esmenet is that she tends to take things personally. I know that there are dumb-asses out there who oppose her because she’s a woman/caste menial/former whore, but I’ve said it before and will say it again, she was chosen to be Kellhus’s “dragon” for a reason and it has little to do with where she came from except that being in “service type” jobs often can give you a pretty decent perspective on human behavior. That goes for nursing too. Not that it’ll be perfect(nothing is), but I’m reminded of the waitress in the movie Thelma and Louise, “I’ve been a waitress for twenty years and if that doesn’t make you can expert on human nature, nothing will.” Esmenet is not only tough and smart, she’s fairly shrewd too.

The only thing is that she sometimes does fall into something WE ARE ALL guilty of: oversimplifying. Plenty of Caste Nobles support her just fine and she’s likely very popular among the common people in the Nansur region(well, for now). The Caste Nobles who hate when lower classes manage to “rise above their station”(and I’m sure this has happened along with escaped slaves) and don’t need her as Empress to think the way they do.

Also, the slaves/menials don’t need her rise to be reminded of their indignities. They generally could care less who is in charge as long as they have healthy, happy, stable lives, AND THEY ARE LEFT IN PEACE. Since they rarely are, they have to care, but the common people who oppose the Empire would have done so no matter who ruled.

What I’m trying to say is that most people who oppose the Kellian Empire and NOT opposing her personally, but the Empire itself. She’s been in power for twenty years, I don’t think they’re really asking “How can a whore be Empress?” anymore. Most people outside of the First Holy War probably don’t even know WHERE she came from and most likely didn’t even know WHO she was until Kellhus became the Aspect-Emperor.

She shouldn’t have to show anyone anything after being a ruling Empress for twenty years. As for Fanayal, I don’t blame her for feeling the way she does about him. He’s been a thorn for YEARS, but he isn’t fighting her legitimacy. He’s been the enemy since the First Holy War and he’s not about to stop now.

3. Mimara has a point about Esmenet, but just because Esmenet wasn’t a slave, doesn’t mean she had that much power in whatever choices she made. Achamian was right to go after her for that. Yes, “there are chains and then there are CHAINS.” As for the Exceptions, if there any group of people who should be flayed alive, it’s the people who made COUNTERFEIT Exceptions. That’s lower than dirt. At least now, Mimara knows that her mother did try to save her all those years ago.

4. Anyone have any fanart of Cleric giving his sermons in the sky? I would love a visual of that. Sermons in the sky…a nice title.

White Luck Warrior 71 % Complete.

1. Looks like Achamian is going to end up delivered to Kellhus. At first, I thought that the Captain had no such intention as he was intent on THE SLOG OF SLOGS, but I’m not seeing that now. Then again, Kosoter is a Zandunyain and crazy like Cleric, so who knows with either one of them? But, since Achamian finally refused the Crackie (oh, Qirri), they’ve held him captive. Maybe they figured out he was lying? Or maybe, Kosoter wants it ALL.

Think of the rewards he would get for delivering Akka to Kellhus and think of what he might still be able to get once they reach the library. BTW, I peeked a bit and found that Cleric is Nil'Giccas, last King of the Nonmen. The same one apparently willing to work with Kellhus. Wonderful.

2. Poor Mimara. I have to give her credit for trying, despite being pregnant. She is miles ahead of Esmenet as best girl. I wonder what the Qirri will do to fetuses?

3. I noticed how the Emissary of King Cleric kept looking at Proyas. I think that is very telling. These insane Nonmen have agreed to help in exchange for Mohenghus, Serwa, and Sorweel. Doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure that out.

4. Speaking of Proyas, psst…the password is “WILLING”. It’s one thing to be a WILLING slave, it’s another to be forced into it. Then again, Kellhus is pretty much admitting that he “made” Proyas willing by playing on what he already/wanted to believe in.

I’d also like to point out that it’s easy to run your mouth about the “exaltation of submission” when you’re basically someone with power, privileged, prosperous, having access to the best just for being alive in the right place and right family. I seriously doubt that the vast majority of CHATTEL SLAVES/Caste menials feel exalted in any way. People who are forced to submit certainly don’t. So women have the same privileges as men? I find no evidence of that.

Then again, certain attitudes don’t change easily, but it seems to me that the only women who have such privlidges are those like Esmenet and the witches. And really, does it mean anything at all if you are OWNED by the “Blessed Empress/Emperor”?


5. I found what happened with the Nilnameshi prostitute INFURIATING. I guess I’m not much for being owned, but I guess I wouldn’t be a survivor like that girl nor did I grow up in a slave state. Naree? I think. People like her are the ones who write/speak the histories. Still, I can understand why Esmenet did what she did as she was in a super desperate situation and didn’t like having to do that. Doesn’t help that Esmenet STILL felt defeated.

That assassin? White Luck Warrior. This is going to be fun. Oh, and I peeked again and found that Imhailas dies and Naree ends up with a nice, fat settlement.

6. The dream Achamian had? I don’t think that actually happened to that Prince. It seemed a little too unreal. Maybe his subconscious is saying that the Crackie is fucking every one up.

7. Kellhus, yea, bla bla bla. There’s nothing he says that most of us don’t already know, except I don’t agree that things would suddenly collapse if a few people decided to tell others to “take this job and shove it.” Take the US, for example, a lot of people don’t have faith in anything, but this country hasn’t collapsed yet. Then again, the US is a tad more modern.

Still, I doubt a slave exodus (for example) should make that much of a difference to the system. Then again, maybe it depends on HOW many people are willing/able to do that. As for Esmenet, looks like she WAS aware that the people didn’t care who was in charge as long as they had healthy, stable lives.

The problem is that, they’re not really left in peace. People in the New Empire are all too easily punished. It just seems WORSE to me. Like, there are some improvements, but at the same time, things have gotten worse. I know that sometimes things will get worse before things will get better, but given what Kellhus/Dunyain actually think about the “world born”…well, let’s just say that I don’t think they care about making the world a better place.

I’d like to think that Esmenet actually DOES, but simply doesn’t have the support to make that happen.
I understand the WAR, but I could have sworn I asked about what would happen AFTER the war. I guess I just expect too much. *shrugs*

White Luck Warrior. 82% Complete!

1. I don’t think I mentioned Obetogawa. I was shocked that he made it that far and only did it so he can die by his Prince’s hand. That guy is STRONG. The more I thought about it, the more tear-jerking it became. Poor Zsoronga. :( I don’t see him ending well either, which would be a shame.

2. Serwa is the sort of character that grows on you. At first, she’s not likeable, but once you get to know her better, that changes. Same with Mohengus jr. I love the interactions between her, Mohengus, and Sorweel. Interesting how she can fast travel. Too bad Achamian couldn’t or wouldn’t do the same.

3. Kosoter is mean to Mimara. (So is every one else now, except for Akka and Incariol). :( Combine that with harming Achamian and he is now on THE LIST. I have to give him credit though. This guy gets things done and isn’t really afraid of nothing. I think even damnation to him is like, “er, I’d rather not.”

4. So, I’m reading things about different sides of the battle. I don’t know what to make of this. One one hand, I think “WHO GIVES A FUCK!? YOU CAN GET SO MUCH MORE DEPTH BY FOCUSING ON A FEW MAJOR CHARACTERS!!” But, at the same time, this war affects MANY people, and not just Proyas or Kayutas. But, I think he could have at least focused on Saubon and his group too. Seems that Saubon just vanished into irrelevancy. Then again, he’s been irrelevant since he was made a king, tbh.

5. I never talked about Prosporian, did I? That guy was so awesome. Love how he ACTS subserviant. I tend to have a love/hate relationship with that sort of thing though. On one hand, it’s smart, but on the other, it’s a tactic not-so good people(Like Uriah Heap) use. Well, I guess it’s a neutral thing. But, I admit that it’s damned smart/shrewd.

6. Crackie–not even once. Pfft…who am I kidding? You know most people would use it if they had some.

White Luck Warrior: Complete. (Keeping the Great Ordeal beginning seperate).

1. Cleric/Akka STOLE THE SHOW! They stole every thing. They win the prize. Best duo, best duel, best eveything. You will be missed terribly, Nil'Giccas. Such a tragedy. Awesome way to go out though. “I AM THE TRUTH!” And AFTER running off a dragon! Mimara did good too. Kosoter died a badass, cinematic death. Dino of 8mm would have loved that.

2. Esmenet is such a mess. Not that I blame her. It’s obvious that she is a mother first, Empress second. She’s been beaten, dragged through the streets, lost her lover, the girl couldn’t do anything to help, etc. It’s understandable that she’d be a bit small minded given the situation, but one of the problems of being in power is that you have to think beyond your “monkey sphere” and that’s a very difficult thing to do even in the best of times. To call her weak is unfair. Unwilling? Yes. And it’s tearing her apart. She’s no Jon Snow, but I think even Jon Snow would fall apart given the circumstances.

3. The problem with the Empire isn’t so much cruelty, it’s the EXCESSIVE cruelty. Yes, it can be effective, but in a lot of cases, it can just as easily lead to more problems later. It’s one of the reasons why there’ve been so many problems in the Empire.

4. Mathinet is right. What happens AFTER the Ordeal? The Empire was a tool. How nice and very surprising. NOT. Oh, Mathinet was killed. Whoopie. Poor Esmenet, her crown moment of awesome was ruined by an invasion. Bummer. That, and the White Luck Warrior. She has no idea who he really is. Oh dear…

5. Kelmomas being bad, as usual. And he knows that things are going to go to hell in a handbasket and he is loving it! Maybe Inrilatas is possessing him. I hope so. >:)

6. Ishual destroyed. I actually knew this long before I even started this series, except that I thought it was a different city. I do wonder what caused it. Consult? Dunyain did it themselves? Will find out soon enough. But…FIGURES.

7. Saubon finally has some prominence again, but why is he even Exalt General? He hasn’t done shit. Does he even serve a purpose anymore other than being a bitchy baby? Maybe he should eat some Sranc.

8. They can eat Scranc now! I’m sure everything will be fine and they’ll totally emerge most triumphant now that they are not starving. I’m sure they won’t go crazy or anything such thing. Nah. Every thing will be alright. Surely. Just like I’m sure that I will shit a platinum rabbit and sell it for 10 million dollars.

The Crabikiad / Re: What's the story!?
« on: November 30, 2017, 05:48:08 pm »
I meant that they're not going to care about the heavens if they know that they're damned anyway. So, they wouldn't mind if the entire system is scrapped. That is, IF they're aware that they won't go to the heavens no matter what they do.

I thought that the Consult was trying to destroy "meaning."

Literature / Re: YOU MUST TELL ME ... What else are you reading?
« on: November 29, 2017, 09:30:07 pm »
Finished Gardens of the Moon and will now be moving on to the Deadhouse Gates.

Here are my Tumblr reactions:

Atrocity Tales / My Tumblr Reactions to The False Sun
« on: November 29, 2017, 08:19:16 pm »

Just because I tapped out of the Unholy Consult, doesn’t mean I tapped out of the SA series entirely. I will always recommend it. Don’t let a weeper like me stop you from soldiering on. Anyway,

1. Check this quote out: “For I have seen the virtuous in Hell and the wicked in Heaven. And I swear to you, brother, the scream you hear in the one and the sigh you hear in the other sound the same.”


I thought immediately of this song:

Heaven’s a LIE! I bet it’s a lie! Just like the cake is a lie. Just like Mankor Cameron’s Paradise in ES: Oblivion and the final level for Blue in Saga Frontier: HEAVEN’S a LIE! Can you imagine? Mimara and Esmenet and a few other people are “saved” and “holy”, but I think they will scream in horror when they find someone like CONPHAS there. What kind of heaven would it be when you see wicked people there? AWKWARD. And it’s also possible that “damnation” might not be as bad as it’s made out to be. What if “damnation” turned out to be AWESOME, but it’s only terrible because people think it is so that’s what they see? It wouldn’t be too bad if it really was full of “virtuous” people. The Ciphrang would still NOM, but no one would notice.

The Non Men appearently wanted to circumvent the WHOLE THING for good reason. They wanted neither heaven or hell.

2. Shaeönanra is interesting as hell. It’s no shock and he and his school ended up being rather wicked. They figure that they’re damned anyway, so why bother being good? Virtue is meaningless and it gets you nowhere. That, and the fact that they’re trying to find ways to escape damnation.

3. Day Lantern? Can I have one? That thing sounds AWESOME! Titigra is AWESOME! MAN! More of him, please! I saw fanart of it and IT IS AWESOME! The fanart is pretty amazing in this fandom.

4. So, Aurang and Shae are lovers? Well, why not? If they have a great and loving relationship, then more power to them! However, most fandom slashers will not go near this one, I’m sure.

5. If Titigra ended up Damned, then I will guarantee you that he is having a blast! Come on! The guy has a BABY skull braided in his beared! How can this guy be anything other than awesome!? And OF COURSE he doesn’t believe anything Shae said. Why should he? Shae had no proof other than some alien.

6. Archeme is a nice throw back to Archemedies, the one who supposedly invented a giant mirror that uses the sun to BURN THINGS. He’s known for a lot more, but I don’t remember. Mathmatics maybe? I know it wasn’t just Euclid.

7. I don’t blame Shae for being cheap against Titigra. That guy was POWERFUL just standing around. The ending. Yikes! The loving couple make love…awww…well, can’t say I blame them. They earned it.

The Judging Eye / My Tumblr Reactions to TJE
« on: November 29, 2017, 06:55:44 pm »

4% Complete.

1. KING Proyas. Honestly, as soon as I saw his name, I smiled. :) I guess his father either died or retired. Always happy to see my second favorite character despite his hard on the for Aspect-Emperor.

2. Kelmomas! Shine on, you crazy diamond! You are the most adorable sociopath! Looks like his love for his mother is sincere though. A redeeming quality. Awwww…Honestly, the bug thing is something that MOST children have done. What makes him a bit wicked is his “second voice”. As for people being like bugs? Nah. Most people are more like dogs. Pack animals, but not too large. Social, but between social butterflies and cats.

3. And I’m #TeamConsult. Sorry, favorite characters. Looks like the new Empire is basically the same shit, only with better window dressing. Fuck the kneelers, fuck the “Holy Emperor/Empress” and fuck every one now that I think of it. I can understand interdependence, but even that has twisted to become what I see as FASCISM. That can go to hell. So many awesome people…lost to the Aspect-Emperor. :( Even if the world is safe from the MEAN NO-GOD, I can’t see much of anything changing for the better.

4. At least sorcery is conveniently no longer blasphemy. At least there seems to be less of a class division. I guess there is some improvement. But, shit with some glitter is still shit.

Maybe I’m just not being fair. Oh well.

5. Mimara is still alive! Can’t wait to meet her! I sense that she may be with Achamian though and NOT one of the kneelers. Not anymore. Wherever she is, yea, I can see Kelmomas regretting not killing her. Maybe she’ll end up killing him instead.

23% Complete. I stayed up all night reading this. Jesus…not the first time I’ve done that for ANY reason. It’s just that I’m not supposed to do that due to health reasons.

1. Sorry Esmenet. You are not best girl anymore. Mimara is best girl now. And I feel so many things for Esmenet. I can only say that whatever the New Empire is, she is NOT innately a tyrant. Conphas would NOT be soul searching the way she is. She’s coming up with rationalizations, justifications, excuses, doubts, etc. This is something people like Cersei Lannister would never do. Not really. At least not for humane reasons. Esmenet is telling herself that the people are kept safe with “discipline”, but the sad thing is that no one is really safe. SHE’S not safe and neither are her children. Oftentimes, tyrants rule with fear because they themselves are paranoid and afraid.

I mean, I buy the argument of “harsh but necessary”. I can see the need to run a “tight ship”, “firm hand”, etc. Hell, I can see a strict autocracy sometimes, but tyranny is a bit different as it has different signs. I generally find it inexcusable as it’s possible to be autocratic/authoritative without descending into actual tyranny. It’s just hard to do, unfortunately. The key is, what happens after the war. Will the tight control relax? Will it remain the way it is? Will things change for the better for the MANY instead of just the few? For EVERY ONE? Honestly, I doubt it. War is an excuse. The government in 1984 used the same excuse.

Kelmomas called it too. It’s KELLHUS they fear more than Esmenet. Don’t get me wrong, Esmenet can and does command respect on her own and I’m sure she’s loved/feared/respected in her own right, but it’s just not the same. She knows it too.

And unfortunately, she’s dead wrong about people “suffering in silence” when they are starving. No matter what lies you tell, hungry people don’t suffer in silence. Just ask the Irish. How silent were they during the Potato Famine? There is a reason why there is an undercurrent of doubt, people most likely wanting to leave(I wonder what happens to the starving people trying to leave?), and the constant threat of rebellion. And here’s the thing, many sovereigns had no fear of rebellion for any reason. In fact, I bet some LOVED the challenge. But, those kinds of people are not ruled by fear. That is, if they’re afraid of anything.

She was reading WAY too much in that stupid poem. She let it get to her. So it’s either insecurity or she fears/knows/suspects that it’s true. Easy for Mathinet to play on. Easy for him to use that as a means of saying “talk can spead” and then do what tyrants do: eliminate the artists and the intellectuals. The former because they generally make poor servants/slaves as they tend to be provocative and have temperaments that don’t really agree much with the servitude a “Kellian Empire” would demand, the latter because they question everything and are therefore threatening.

Anyway, #TeamConsult. Fuck the New Empire. Sure, it has some positive changes, but, like I said, what happens when the war ends? What will happen to that witch’s school? Will it be here to stay or will it be forced to disband when they have outlived their usefulness?

2. Akka! Why are you so mean to Mimara? :( Mimara is best girl now. Hopefully, he was just testing her and it looks like she has passed. Her “Judging Eye” reminds me of the Dragon Eye in Breath of Fire 2. Too bad it’s currently only showing her things that the world already justifies. Like say, slavery. Or women just HAVE to submissive to men simply for being women. Then, there are her own biases. If she’s straight(or has internalized misogyny), then of COURSE men would shine more brightly than women. That being said, at least she has a good idea of who is naughty and who is nice. I like her. So far, so good.

3. Whether or not hope is a slaver’s enemy simply depends on the hope. Hope that “if I do as I’m told/am good/work hard enough, then I’ll be free” is hardly an enemy. Hope of escape, winning, being rescued, well, yea. That’s an enemy.

4. Proyas. So broken. His hair/beard is SILVER? What is he? 120? ;) But, it’s obvious that he is wrecked. I guess years of constant war will do that to you. Yea, it’s true that some people are afraid of losing their power/privlidge, but it’s not the only thing they’re afraid of. There is a REASON why Sorweel’s father refused to yield. He knew that willingly surrendering and being forced to surrender would simply lead to the same thing: Slavery. The only difference is the color of the chain. TBH, I’m relieved that there are no actual democracies, republics, and socialist states(actual socialist states and not reformist/deformed whatevers who call themselves socialist) on Earwa. I think for those countries to fall to Kellhus would be the most devastating of falls.  At least countries of the North are accustomed to feudal/absolute monarchies/slave states. 

5. Sorweel! Hello, Sorweel! How do you do? I like you. I liked your father. I can’t begin to imagine what it must be like in your situation. And honestly, looks like Kellhus has a use for you. Honestly, it’s the only reason why you were spared.

33% Complete.

1. Called Samamras’s death! Knew it as soon as Kelmomas was left alone with his brother. I thought he’d be pushed off, which is typical, but the way Kel set it up was pretty smart. It guaranteed a quick death, so it’s clear that while he wanted Samar dead, he didn’t want him to suffer. The alarming thing is that I know that I’m supposed to be outraged and yet, I just thought it was funny. I really didn’t care that much. I guess it’s because there just isn’t enough of Samarmras to care all that deeply about. I was more upset with INRAU’S death and if Kel killed someone like say, Akka, then I would have been howling for his blood.

It might also be because of what the second voice asked. I think THAT’S the spirit of his brother.

Looks Kelmomas has MOMMY all to himself. But, poor Esmenet though. She is wrecked. I like the super logical daughter though. People like her are often very interesting. She’s like the android in the first Star Trek movie.

The funeral scene was very touching and it shows how humane Esmenet really is. :(

2. CLERIC! Oh YES! This is going to be awesome! I love the Nonmen. Every time they show up, things get SUPER interesting! They are such lovely and insane people and I understand how and why it happened. Still, want more of these guys!

3. Yatwer is an interesting cult. I can see why she’s so popular with many caste-menials/slaves. My problem is that while she and her followers acknowledge how the system is, they don’t seem interested in really changing it. They STILL consider magic “blasphemy” even though it would help them, and especially women, in general. I guess old habits die hard. They just seem reactionary to me. Like, sure, they want change, but it’s more about turning back the clock than anything else.

I can see why Yatwer is feared. Her symbol says it all. Not only is she a Goddess of birth/life, she is one of death. Most people fear death. I like the Mother Supreme. Honestly, I like this cult. One of the few religious sects I can sympathize with.

4. Am I the only one who found the smex between Akka and Mimara a bit unnecessary? Speaking of Akka, he would miss the people he left behind because he didn’t seem them as mere chattel. He saw them as people who helped him out. He saw them as people who were kind to him. The Library Dream. Waaa…what a huge loss. Damn dragons. I bet Mimara will be joining the very interesting group of scalpers eventually. Whatever the case, I’m sure she’ll be okay for awhile.

5. I bet Proyas would have loved having “The Judging Eye”. Just wanted to throw that out there.

48% Complete.

1. Come on! Enough of the fucking rape/attempted rape. I know these guys are crazy, but it’s just getting annoying now. Poor Mimara, but at least she handles herself quite well(eh, she’s used to it. :/) AND she is finally learning SORCERY! WHEEE!!!1 Hopefully, she won’t end up dead or betray Achamian. Let’s see, Proyas was the first and ended up VERY hostile(and needlessly MEAAAAAN) because magic is blasphemy. Bah. Second, was Inrau and he ended up dead. BOOO! Third, was Kellhus and yea, we all know how that went.

And Achamian is being awesome again! YAY!

2. Interesting how Esmenet sold Mimara into slavery and is then OUTRAGED at her being in a brothel. Would she have been so outraged if Mimara end a domestic slave? And such extreme reactions might be why there is a lot of rumbling towards the New Empire. And Mimara wasn’t happy about it either. Yea, who WAS being avenged?

3. Poor Sorweel. So trapped. A powerless King and clearly haunted. To witness cruelty and are powerless to stop it. At least a follower of Yatwer is with you. An interesting slave. Love how Proyas boldly walks into the tent trying to make friends despite the language barrier. I don’t know what the hell he was expecting. I mean, the kid’s father is dead, he witnessed an acquiantace being treated cruelly, and he knows that he’s basically fucked.

4. I really do like the campfire camaraderie scenes. Yea, I know how Achamian feels when you find yourself alone after being with others. Except I only felt it playing Dark Souls. Still, he has his own “niche” now. I just hope they don’t get any ideas about Mimara.

5. Black Halls? Yea, I’m sure that’ll end well. I think all but, like, five will end up dying.

58% Complete. Breezing through this!

1. The Kellhus port was just straight up cheap. CHEAP. Esmenet and Mathinet needed to be saved from some bitter, power mongering old woman? Really? Yea, she’s difficult, but not beyond Esmenet AND Mathinet. Come on. And the shit about pride? I see right through that. Kellhus’s idea of pride is someone not willing to be a slave. Someone not willing or able to kiss his ass.

2. Poor Esmenet. She is clearly miserable and probably was since she became Empress. It’s one thing to be a reluctant leader(these sorts do tend to be excellent leaders, like Jon Snow), but it’s another to be TOO reluctant(it’s just as bad as being too eager)and extremely unhappy. It might explain some of the needless cruelty. Acting for the ages? Really, Kellhus? It’s one thing to be like a jury member who must act in accordance of the law, but this is different. Shouldn’t the New Empire also usher in a New Age? I know there’s a war and one before the Second Holy War, but as I asked before, what happens after it?

She is clearly being set up to end up holding the bag when things eventually “go South”.

3. Ah, Yatwer. How can your cultists be so right and so wrong? White Luck warrior is CNAIUR. Wouldn’t surprise me one bit. Would be odd for him to fight for the most vulnerable of society, but then again, it’s been awhile.

4. Sorweel is such a mess. Poor guy. Looks like some people are willing to befriend him though. No, not Kellhus’s kids, but the Zeumi prince. I guess Sorweel has that going for him which is nice. Anyway, the fact that he is forced to kneel. The fact that ANYONE is. At least the Prince Imperial Kayutas is honest about it. “We are all slaves to my father.” Freedom is Slavery? LOLOLOLOL. I wonder if Bakker was influenced by “1984”. I wonder if Sorweel has a foot fetish? ;)

5. Hi, Serwa.

77% Complete.

1. I know that Kelmomas is supposed to be hateable and scary, but I just think he’s hilarious! TWEET TWEET TWEETTWEETTWEET! And yea, poor Esmenet will be blamed. Come on, Kelmo, you’re supposed to love your mommy. Why put her through more trouble than she’s already in? But, I guess he just loves chaos because it’s a ladder and it’s fun.

2. Prince Zsonga has it figured out, for sure, but “children” is a nice way of putting it. Cnaiur is right. It’s SLAVES. I think the difference is that with the Scalvendi, slavery only applies to combat losers, but for Kellhus, it applies to every one. That’s a form of “equality” that is not a good thing, especially since Kellhus and the Dunyain consider themselves “more equal than others.” I do worry for that Prince though because he is clearly not 100% into Kellhus and I think that will be found out eventually.

3. I get really cranky when I hear things like “we are not equal” because to me, it’s used to justify cruelty/slavery/abuse towards those whose only crime is not being as “rich/talented/right color/” as others. It is almost always an excuse made by the privileged. The thing is, I KNOW people aren’t the same, but that doesn’t make say, slavery, okay. “We are all fragments of God”. Oh, shut up, Madate Sorceror.

4. Cleric has stolen the show. Then again, every time the Nonmen show up, they steal the show. The scenes involving Achamian and the “Slog” are my favorites. I LOVE the banter. I love the comic relief.

5. Maybe Sorweel is the White Luck Warrior? That would be interesting, especially given his situation.

I can’t think of anything else right now. I just want to get through this and White Luck Warrior. I want to know what is going on with the last two books.

The Judging Eye. Complete.

1. I don’t believe Cnaiur is dead. I think that was miswritten or something like that.

2. Just reading the last part of the book was a SLOG. Jesus Christ. That place made the mines of Moria look like Disneyland. Those poor Emwama people. And THAT many years living a fate worse than death. Maybe the betrayal was for something more than just petty reasons. Maybe they were scared that they would end up like the Emwama. Now that I’ve read who the Emwama were, I can see why they were massacred. Those people were broken beyond repair. Better off dead. At least Karma took a big shit on the Nonmen.

3. Achamian still has his sense of humor! YAY! So did the Skin Eaters.

“You can have a scranc scratch your ass!”

“Yea, but then my ass would stink!”

I felt so many things through that journey. I can’t write them all down, but they are OUT and that is good. I love that Mimara is going everything she can, including being an action girl. Nice to see that Cleric survived the Wraith King. I know he’ll be trouble later and it will be glorious.

4. Looks like Kellhus can’t read Sorweel. White Luck? Anyway, I love the ignorance about genetics and what women REALLY are when bearing children. Eh, how are they supposed to know?  I’m surprised that the Zeum prince wasn’t called out for anything. I guess it’s because he’s not perceived as a problem. Not yet anyway.

5. Yea, it’s painfully obvious that Kelmomas wants Esmenet all to himself, but he is causing her so much grief, but hey, she turns to him, right? Unmoved mover? Yea, right. You wish, kiddo. I think he’s trying to get Esmenet to abdicate and if that doesn’t work, then try to create scandal by setting up an affair with Mathinet.

6. It kind of bothers me to see Proyas and Saubon become little more than backgrounds. I guess they both had their moments in the sun, but still…would have been nice to see more of them.

Anyway, on to White Luck Warrior.

The Crabikiad / Re: What's the story!?
« on: November 29, 2017, 06:48:03 pm »
His death section with Yatwer calling him to her realm was beautiful and integral to the story, to what we lose when Meaning dies.

It won't mean anything to those who are damned.

Well, I would love to see other live reactions. :)

Also, what's up with every second word being "Proyas"

I...I...really don't know. *coughliescough*

Free Among the Dead - Diamanda Galás.

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