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TGO ARC Discussion / Re: TGO Suicides
« on: June 27, 2016, 06:47:18 pm »
I feel as though Koringhus's suicide was a reaction to his understanding.
He is the last of the Dunyain. The final Survivor of the halls. Worthiest of a worthy line. He matches gazes with a pregnant woman. She is nothing. He can see ten feet through her, and she's barely three feet deep. He will make her love him, possess her and wring from her everything of worth. And then...she comes before him. Despite her total lack of training. Despite the fact that thousands of years of atrocity didn't go into refining her, despite the fact that she doesn't deny every emotion, see everyone else as component urges...she effortlessly sounds his waters. She states his thoughts without compunction or hesitation, even as he has them, EVEN AS HE SEES HER DO IT. He is trumped on a level he doesn't even compete on.
The Dunyain are not only gone, they were stupid. Grasp the absolute through knowledge? HA! All they ever had to do was nothing. But they sought relentlessly, damned themselves, warped their women into animals, their men into monsters...and FOR NOTHING. Mimara transcends them without effort.
They sought to become the absolute, but never imagined that they might find the job taken. So Koringhus, the last of the Dunyain, comes up against the Zero God. Perfectly optimized search algorithm vs. just picking the right one first, every time. His efforts are futile, and worse, his LIFE WAS ALWAYS leading to this. What come after CAN determine what comes before. He survived those halls, for nothing. He has lied to his son every day of his life, for nothing.
He rationalizes killing himself as protecting them from his madness, as joining the absolute in death, as whatever you like. I think he killed himself because he despaired.
He is the last of the Dunyain. The final Survivor of the halls. Worthiest of a worthy line. He matches gazes with a pregnant woman. She is nothing. He can see ten feet through her, and she's barely three feet deep. He will make her love him, possess her and wring from her everything of worth. And then...she comes before him. Despite her total lack of training. Despite the fact that thousands of years of atrocity didn't go into refining her, despite the fact that she doesn't deny every emotion, see everyone else as component urges...she effortlessly sounds his waters. She states his thoughts without compunction or hesitation, even as he has them, EVEN AS HE SEES HER DO IT. He is trumped on a level he doesn't even compete on.
The Dunyain are not only gone, they were stupid. Grasp the absolute through knowledge? HA! All they ever had to do was nothing. But they sought relentlessly, damned themselves, warped their women into animals, their men into monsters...and FOR NOTHING. Mimara transcends them without effort.
They sought to become the absolute, but never imagined that they might find the job taken. So Koringhus, the last of the Dunyain, comes up against the Zero God. Perfectly optimized search algorithm vs. just picking the right one first, every time. His efforts are futile, and worse, his LIFE WAS ALWAYS leading to this. What come after CAN determine what comes before. He survived those halls, for nothing. He has lied to his son every day of his life, for nothing.
He rationalizes killing himself as protecting them from his madness, as joining the absolute in death, as whatever you like. I think he killed himself because he despaired.