Though, I agree with H. Now, that he is on a path to wherever the TT leads, he will not let emotions get him sidetracked. But, again, I do believe emotions is what set him on his course.
Well, that is where we differ. While I don't doubt that Kellhus has emotions, I don't think that is what set him on a track that lead him to a different Thousandfold Thought than Moënghus imagined. Well, actually scratch that, Moënghus knew that the full Thousandfold Thought was beyond him, that is why he called Kellhus to him in the first place. What he didn't realize was that it would necessitate
his death. The lynchpin for me is the Voice. And Kellhus admits (in TGO) that it was his "disorder" that lead him to listen to the Voice.
That is what set him apart.
Why? Because one of the major things we learn in the Kellhus-Moënghus TTT confrontation is that papa Moë is
wrong in the assuption that the Law of Before and After is inviolate. We know, especially post-TGO that this is false. So, that is why Moënghus could not carry on the Thousandfold Thought. But Kellhus, semi-deranged (mad, if you will, but I wouldn't call it madness) was open at that point on the Circumfix. Open to himself reaching back and that is where the true Thousandfold Thought comes into play. Could we call his state on the Circumfix emotional? Perhaps, but that isn't the connotation I would ascribe to it, but it could fit.
Yeah I can't imagine the purpose of keeping Meppa alive for any reason other than figuring out the inner workings of the Psuke.
Maybe that's too direct and there is some other path, but I certainly don't see it.
Well, Kellhus does make some statement like, "Such Power", when facing off Meppa. I agree he definitely sees some value to the Psûkhe. Or, it's just the Voice telling him what to do.....
Recall how many times The Thousandfold Thought has basically dictated the keeping of an "enemy" alive though. Kellhus has had plenty of time and opportunity to kill Akka, Aurang, Fanayal, Sorweel, and so on. We keep asking why, which is proof positive (to me, now) that the Voice speaks from the future Kellhus. Each has a part to play, which makes no sense
now, but will later.
Think of it as Kellhus keeping Akka alive. He allows it, Akka writes the books (why this is needed I don't know, but perhaps to draw Mimara to him?) and so Mimara goes to him, she gets pregnant and so has the Judging Eye which is needed (for what, maybe to look at Kellhus? Maybe to look at the No-God?). It's all connected, but not in a causal way that we see, because the Thousandfold Thought is beyond Before and After now, because it's author (future Kellhus) is directing it from beyond the Now.